There’s this big topic that I struggle to talk about. It’s something that affects my life on every level, yet I can’t bring myself to sit with it long enough to understand why I feel the way I do.
The topic: I don’t understand my sexuality and rules of attraction.
It’s not like something I can just go get tested for, and come back with answers. There’s nobody else that can tell what’s going on in my head, so it sure would be cool if at least I had an idea of what’s going on.
The dilemma: there are people in my life that I love, and absolutely adore. I would marry these people and spend the rest of my life with them…. If sex and romance weren’t part of it.
It’s those little daily moments that I would love to share with these special people. Sitting and drinking a cup of tea or coffee. Making dinner. Laughing together. Going on road trips.
I know it just sounds like I’m describing friendship, but it’s more than that. I don’t know how to say it in words that make sense.
