Well. My discipline wasn’t strong enough to carry me through the 365 day writing challenge during Love Burn. That’s 8 days that I went without successfully updating my blog. I did write a bit in private entries, but nothing extensive.
I suppose now that the trick is to keep going, and still uphold my commitment to the challenge every single day. The temptation exists to accept failure and let the challenge dwindle, allowing myself grace periods and forgiveness until it ceases to exist entirely. This is a big part of why I struggle so much to accomplish long-term goals and commit to projects without tangible, immediate results.
When I skipped a day to allow more time for having fun, I wasn’t struck by lightning. Another day passed, and still I felt nothing. No pressure to achieve the goal. Not even the slightest hint of remorse or guilt. No, I simply didn’t want to do it, because I preferred to spend my time focused on the event .
And now, at this moment, I’m preferring to spend my time focusing on sleep. Once again, I’ve just woken up slumped over the keyboard, cross-eyed and unable to read what I’ve written.
I suppose it’s time to call it for the night. Some things never change, hey?
Goodnight for now.
